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| It's hard.
We've all been in that relationship that's floundering. It's almost like talking to them becomes a huge chore and you don't even want to do it. And you begin to skate through the relationship like it doesn't even exist. You're giving so little to someone who is giving you their absolute best. You feel invincible like they'll never leave you,because of course,they love you. But then the day comes that they finally realize what you're doing to them,and they're done. Do you know the feeling of dread that you get when you know something isn't going to go your way and you can't change it? It sucks. But at what point to you accept the dread and continue moving on in your life? If only we could immediately transport to the time that we're over that person and see all that went wrong. But no,we're stuck in a haze of our emotions and we can't seem to get past that person. The human psyche amazes me. We go throught the motions time and time again,and yet we still don't know what we have until it's gone. That feeling of dread hangs with us until we find someone new. Or,we commence the horrible act of riding out the emotion until it subsides. My only wish for society today is this one simple thing: realization. Think about it. And don't just think inside the relationship aspect. Think about realization as a whole. Stop taking things for granted. Nowadays,it seems like regret is the only thing that is certain in life. It's the only thing that will stick with you until the very end. And if you don't like that realization then my only advice to you is one thing. Change it. | | |
| twenty nine. 
Is it easy for you to accept loss?
No,it's not easy for anyone to accept it. People don't like when things change. So we avoid those things that we don't like at all costs.
Are you craving anything right now?
I was craving soup,so I made some.
Have you ever sang karaoke in a public place?
Gah,no.
Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
A psychologist. Or something to do with helping people. All I want to do is help.
Do you need proof to believe things?
Yes.
Does it annoy you when people play dumb?
Mhm. It's not getting anyone anywhere.
Have your past mistakes made you wiser?
That's what I'm hoping.
When will you more than likely want to be left alone?
When I talk to Dylan. We have some things we need to work out,and I need my family to leave me alone while that's happening.
Has your life been what you've imagined it to be?
No. I imagined that I would be happy all the time. But I'm not.
What is your favorite Kate Winslet movie?
Titanic :)
Do you hate to hug people?
Some people are horrible at giving hugs.
Do you prefer underground or mainstream bands?
I prefer good music in general. I don't care where it came from.
Do you look at old pictures of yourself and laugh?
Yes,if they're absolutely ridiculous.
What is weighing you down currently?
My thought process.
When was the last time you felt like just disappearing?
Yesterday.
When you sleep on your bed, is stuff usually on it?
Yeah. There's stuffed animals,clothes and a binder thing usually.
Do you take any sleeping pills?
I used to take melatonin. It felt so good to just lay down and fall asleep instead of waiting for sleep to come.
Don't you hate it how people only talk to you every once in a great while?
No.
Three days from now, will you have sex?
Probbaly not.
When was the last time you talked to your #1?
Last night.
Do you like being in pictures?
Mhm.
Are you happy at the moment?
No. I feel like crying but I can't. I hate that feeling.
What were you doing at 10pm last night?
Debating whether I should go out.
Who was the last person who drove you somewhere, aside from your parents?
Patrick.
What was the last piercing you got?
My ears.
Have you ever made a significant other cry?
I guess I did last night. I'm so sorry for that,it should have never happened.
Do you get distracted easily?
Mhm.
Are you happy with your living arrangements?
Not at all. I wish I was older so that I could leave everyone behind and never talk to them again. That's what I truly want.
Are you open with your feelings to people?
Yes.
Hows this last week been for you?
Not good.
Are you tired?
A little. I fell asleep late and woke up early.
Do you currently have a hickey?
Nope.
When are you going to get your next new phone?
Not for awhile. | | |
| I'm tired of hearing and seeing how much people hate themselves.
There's so much that people don't like about themselve and it makes me angry. Why can't you just be happy? If you have to ask yourself whether or not you're fat,then it's probably because you're body has changed and you're self concious about it. And,more than likely,you're probably fat. But why,besides health issues,do you fucking care if you're fat? Because society is telling you that it's wrong to not be rail thin? Or do you actually believe that being fat is bad? Honestly,who fucking cares. And asking other people if you're fat or not is essentially a death sentence. Animalistic people who aren't comfortable with themselves and need someone to take their aggression out on will tell you that you're overweight. Or they could be like me and get really annoyed. But,either way,they're telling you the truth. And if you're already in a deteriorating mindset,why on earth would you ask someone else? I don't know what that does for you. Because you're still going to think that you're fat even if people tell you that you're not. Why? Because it's your body. And you know it better than anyone else does. Therefore,you notice when you gain and inch around your waist and you notice when your clothes start to fit differently. If you think you're fat then do something about it. It's not like you have to live with that extra inch for the rest of your life. I know how hard it is to exercise and I know how hard it is to maintain your weight when there's so much going on around you,but seriously,shut up. Chances are,you're pretty and intellectual. Just be comfortable with yourself. | | |
| twenty eight. 
Have you ever watched a movie in another language?
Mhm. From the description in On Demand it sounded like a horror movie. But it turned out to be this creepy cartoon in French.
What did you do today that you didn't do yesterday?
Ate soup.
Can you fit into your best friend's shoes?
Sort of. Everyone's feet are bigger than mine.
Who gave you the last gift you received?
My mom.
Have you ever experienced an airport hug? (Run and jump into their arms)
Haha I haven't.
If you go to school, what was the last school lunch you ate?
Pizza.
Have you completed driver's education?
No,I still have three months to go until it's over.
Do you have any friends 21 or older?
Not friends,i'm acquainted with them though.
Whose car did you last ride in?
I drove Patrick's car home.
What are your plans for the weekend?
Mardi Gras,and I don't know what else.
Do you know anyone with a genital piercing?
No. Someone might have one,I'm just not going to go around asking lol.
How old is your sibling?
I have four siblings. Their ages vary from 30-10
When was the last time you cried?
Last week.
How much cash do you have at the moment?
Nonee! I'm in desperate need of a job.
What is your significant other's middle name?
Cole.
Do you have a poster on your ceiling?
No.
What brand of shoes did you wear today?
Uggs.
When was the last time you did drugs?
I haven't done drugs.
If you could be with anybody you personally know right now, who would it be?
I kind of like being alone at the moment. I don't really have any urge to see anyone.
When was the last time you saw your father?
Last week.
What could you go for right now?
I want to go make chocolate milk.
Are you taking a language course currently?
French.
Do you have a lighter in your room?
No,my mom stole it.
What color of bra did you wear today?
Pink.
What classes did you have today?
It's Saturday.
What's your favorite thing to do?
Right now,it's driving. I love it.
What's a nickname you have for your pet?
Don't have one.
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had in your bedroom?
Dylan.
What are you listening to?
Nothing.
Have you ever had the curly fries from Arby's?
I have. I don't remember what they taste like though. That was a long time ago.
What is your hair like at the moment?
It's in a ponytail. But it's really soft.
What was the last show you went to?
I don't remember.
When was the last time you smoked a full cigarette?
Months ago.
Who was the last person to tell you that you're beautiful?
My boyfriend.
What's the book you're reading called?
I'm not reading anything for the time being. | | |
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